Thursday, May 1, 2008

lose with eloquence, smile

"Nosce te ipsum."

Know thyself. Know that leaving isn't synonymous with losing. Know that everything you pick up has to be put down. Be wise enough to know the answer, smile, and walk away. Stepping back is always the hardest part isn't it? It lets you see that everything isn't as you imagined it right? But it's okay. I don't mind.

As usual, "I'm sorry if I was cruel, I was just protecting myself..."

On the bright side,
I am looking forward to catching up with an old friend! I have been craving Thai food for ages now, and the feeling of someone suggesting it is rather exhilarating, especially since Cavan has been rubbing it my face that he seems to have it daily for lunch.

Lately I've finally gotten sick of pho, especially after eating so much of it with Tammy that we both nearly puked in my car. I think the new resolution is to avoid Garden Bakery (a complete DEATH TRAP due to their crazy good snacks) and to stop eating pho at all times of day. Seriously. I'm starting to smell like a beef ball, but hopefully that's just in my head.

OH yea! I completely rearranged my room yesterday. No idea what I was on, but the only thing in it's original place is the bed hahaha. Also, I finally got the picture tile up and going, but I'm thinking of recopying the colorful photos in black and white so that it's more uniform. I really like it, but what do you think?

OH, yes another OH, I'm excited to try and see if I can give myself a fro using the new tiny hair straightener we got at Holt! If I succeed I will post pictures... :]

Friday, April 11, 2008


I have tried, time and time again, to fucking change my top 10 list. Give me a break buddy, I've tried to change it at least 10 fucking times now, each at different points of time. If I see another error message, I'm going to go straight to their damn booth and ream somebody out.


Get the fuck out, I can't wait to get to West Ed and give them a piece of my mind. >:"(

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

not just chills down your spine, but chills down to your toes

Having weird internal conflicts lately, but only my trio knows why. The added stress from the inevitable exam week isn't helping either - every morning I wake up ready to heave and drive to school thinking, "wow, the world really is black and white," and then every two hours I think to myself, "wow, another cigarette really wouldn't hurt right now," and then every night I roll around for at least an hour before I think "wow, I'm really glad that I bought this economy sized pack of sleep inducing allergy medicine!"

If someone were to describe something quite like this to me, I would, with quite a lot of certainty, tell them that perhaps their world, or maybe a vital artery, was about to collapse.

Yesterday (or was it today?) Maggie texted me asking if I was about to have a nervous breakdown and I laughed it off, but now that I think twice, maybe I should be on the lookout for the symptoms of one. At the moment I'm most thankful for having Tammy in my top 10 so that I can continue texting her random silly messages to keep my mind off things/find out where the next shoe sale is at (haha!) and only regretful that my top 10 doesn't extend to Vancouver :\ (sorry Mags).

What are the signs anyways? I think I may have had one once during my 2nd year of university, but it mostly consisted of me suddenly snapping and then laughing hysterically for a good hour before rolling off the bed and wandering off to wherever I was supposed to be next. Nothing too dangerous.

I recently read a manga where the protagonist had similar experiences and eventually it turned out that it was really the omen of death ahead. Apparently there was a death god following her around, setting up traps to kill her off! How mean! And sneaky. If I were faced with death, I don't think I'd appreciate it if it were to die by a falling flowerpot. Mind you, at this rate, I wouldn't appreciate death by any means because that would mean a great summer ahead wasted.

The funny thing is, since my last trip to Asia, if there are no pending travel plans ahead and I have nothing to look forward to, my mood will deteriorate to the point where I suddenly start partying too hard to sleeping too much. There's a term for this: REVERSE CULTURE SHOCK.

At this rate, I can only hope to finish school quickly so I can move away to Berlin (with Mags) and Japan (with... myself hahaha).

I wonder if I was painting something right now, what would I paint? I think a deep purple/black lump of coal? No, scratch that. I would paint bold beautiful colors in the background and then cover it with black crayon, like in the old days, where you would then proceed to scratch off the thick layer of black crayon to create a negative photo finished effect. Maybe I can convince someone to assist me in this endeavor. What would the subject be? I will have to think more about this...

It feels good to type all this... like vomiting self-centered psycho-babble, I know, but fuck it feels good. (Also a good way to procrastinate from having to edit this stupidass Classics paper.)

You know what's funny? How you can say that you don't want something so badly and then suddenly the tables are turned and you feel like you have to eat your words. Now that, that is an awful, stomach churning feeling. Perhaps this is the true reason behind my angst. I hate divulging too many details concerning other people since it's not really nice to post these things without their permission, so I will have to be discrete in getting my point across.

I suppose the direct translation of the term I'm thinking would be "flower heart". But it would sound stupid to say "I have a flower heart" so I won't. Or perhaps, it should be the butterfly who flies from one flower heart to the next and has lots of fun and kills all the flowers in the process after drinking all their nectar.

I'm not sure that makes sense, but I do know that I'm hungry. And that my throat is starting to hurt. Ugh...

Sunday, April 6, 2008

fire me up for the last weekend of life before death

So... forget the kicking addictions bit in the last post. Fuck it, I dig it so bite me. As Maggie would say,

"It's easier to beg for forgiveness, than to ask for permission."

I'm sure my body will accept my apologies in a year, I'll serve it on a platter with Tuxedo cake and a big glass of milk. Can't complain right?

Gnarly weekend, I think this photo of us all doing splits pretty much sums it up.

...leave a little to the imagination, that's what I always say...

So Jordan and I discovered something bizarre...
Wrigley's DOUBLE MINT will glow neon green after chewing it with a pint or two.

Should we be questioning why a wad of gum is glowing like fucking KRYPTONITE?

Saturday, March 29, 2008

time to...

...start studying again

...lose 15 lbs, maybe 20 for good measure T_T

...kick my addictions - hahahahha no more smoking until I lose my voice/drinking until I blackout/reading mangas and watching dramas until I can't wake up the next day/etc. etc. money for CALIFORNIA ROAD TRIP and HONG KONG!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!

...stop showing off my weird lips by making funny faces heheheheh V_V

Friday, March 14, 2008


On a roll with the cooking frenzy!

Today Tammy, Alvin, and I made okonomiyaki (something like Japanese pancake pizza). AND we're good at it! Or at least, Alvin and I are good at cooking, while Tammy is good at decorating... <3 Also watched Boondock Saints for the first time... Other than the fact that the movie lived up to its cult classic expectations, I think we were more so rendered speechless by how hot the two brothers were... kakakaka

So after I got home, I got in a 3 hour fight with my stupid color laser printer - I tried relieve a paper jam stuck in the one fucking place that could NOT be removed, it tried to eat my hand alive.


After mangling my hand and finally getting all traces of paper out using an arsenal of different screwdrivers, tweezers, and steak knife, the ink transfer is somehow fucked and now everything prints in a stupid washed out pastel.

Fuck you, you stupid constipated printer who is diarrhea-ing my notes. T_T

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

the drip

Finally got off my ass and bought the equipment to make Vietnamese coffee!

For some reason, mine dripped at least 10x faster than anytime I've ordered it...

...can anybody tell me why?

Has anybody dared make this with more than 1 tablespoon of coffee grounds? I used 1 and it already looked like tar!

(Photo by Fran Gealer)

So I guess that Vietnamese coffee really got to me, because I ended up spontaneously deciding to make hairy squash stuffed with fish paste and chinese sausage (top left), 御握り (onigiri with tuna salad or dried pork filling and dusted with wasabi flavoured rice topping, bottom left), tuna salad sushi with cucumber, and 稲荷寿司 (inari sushi, bottom right).

[OK I can't deny I love having this Japanese input thing...]

I've never made the stuffed squash before so I overcooked it a bit, but overall, pretty good for a randomly made up recipe.

The onigiri was much more difficult than expected... you'd think that for plain white rice triangles, it would be pretty simple, but add filling and suddenly rice is stuck EVERYWHERE. Literally. Currently I look like I got attacked by a rice cooker... look at the mess I made!

Monday, March 10, 2008

a weekend without sleep...

Didn't sleep much this weekend, somehow managed to stay out until 7 the next morning every night even though I worked all weekend. How you wonder? I'm secretly a robot -- see Terminator EhEHEHHEE.

So for all the people out there who aren't familiar with HK style karaoke bars (which is where we ended up after getting Nike in trouble while playing mahjong at his house - yes, I know, we can't escape the motherland), it's mostly really random bottle service drink mixes, lots of smoking, and really odd looking drinking games.

If you get the chance, you should order yogurt soju, honey or green tea hennessee, ribena vodka and if you're at Laser, THE HOUSE NOODLES!!!! (Avoid this if you're a vegetarian of any sort because you'll run home crying)

So after Alda convinced the guy to almost triple the 'contents' of our 2nd jug (upon tasting, Pringle laughed hysterically and comments: "OH! This is going to be good!"), this is us!
I feel like I should take a minute to apologize to Alex for serving him too much sake earlier at dinner... SORRY! (>_<'')!

So Tammy squished Pringle's head...
and then Alda and I tried to beat him up...

You know what they say...

Just the 4 of us... we went back to my house afterwards for food. Apparently I am a pretty good cook while intoxicated. YAY!

PS. Does anybody agree with me that Tammy looks really good with flaming red hair?

So next week, DJ MEHDI and KRAFTY KUTS are playing at Starlight. Not sure whether I should be excited or not since the past string of artists stopping in Edmonton that I've seen have either made fools of themselves or just punked out... oh well... I still have my hopes up!

Thursday, March 6, 2008

my friend: NO COMMENT

HAhaHAHAH a funny reaction between my friend and i, in response to a vulgar and untrue story:

my friend says:

my friend says:
seriously, be bigger

my friend says:
it's easy with ********

my friend says:

note: the number of ******** is not relevant to the person's name, i just wanted to keep this classy :}

speaking of stories, here's a good one (gets me every time):

Tuesday, March 4, 2008


stumbled across this strangely attractive androgynous singer/guitarist


he's hot
and not too shabby with a guitar either

if you see him, let me know
i am claiming him as my lost pet

<3 <3 <3

Monday, March 3, 2008

it's been a long time...

HAPPY 2008! A little late, I know...

[I forgot I had a blog, but here I am!]

To start, things have been quite eventful in the past while [what an understatement] but at least everything has been smooth sailing [somewhat].

I've discovered a newly addictive [and not in a good way] personality, probably due to a lack of discipline and willpower on my part. Also newly discovered: alcoholic, shopoholic, dateaholic, ramenaholic, mangaholic, lackoffocusaholic [hahahahhah I can't help myself, really, I try].

Went to Vancouver a week ago, was way too indulgent but had crazy good times and lots of goodies [and shoes!!!!] to show for it!

Stayed at my BFF Maggie's place, we even got a bunny sugar container as an ash try for the balcony. Cute ne?

Happily got to go to GUU WITH GARLIC twice while I was there [my favorite restaurant in the whole wide world]! Look at their super cute mascots and yummy menu! They also have a very cute staff, but even I have limits when it comes to being too creepy...

This is a funny fight between Maggie and Thea... ^_^V

So many fun adventures!
We also saw Pinback play at Richards on Richards and met the lead singer... he was like Santa Claus! Can you see the stickman that he drew on Maggie's hand?

Also, can you guess how many pairs of shoes I have acquired since the beginning of 2008?
Actually, I'm too embarrassed to say, so I will just show you... $_$

Needless to say, I could not fit both shoes of all of them in the picture hEHehhehehe
It was fun lining them all up, just like children <3

Say what you will, but until I can have doggies for babies [I want all 4!], shoes are my kids - they look better, you don't have to change their diapers, and they don't let out blood curling screams at all the wrong times...

OK enough for now, I'm going to go eat soya sauce chicken wings and ramen... jealous? ^^
Too bad I don't know how to make my favorite ふとまき like the ones I'm holding...